being 17

When i was 10, i imagined being 17 as something awesome, powerful, life-changing.

now i am 17 and i still think like im 10, despite growing up and changing lives.

yeah, when i was 10, there was no way i could have imagined that i will be living in Singapore one day. when i was 10, i could not have thought of the lifestyle im leading now, living in a hostel with 47 other batchmates. In the similar fashion, i would not have known the pressure, the stress, the craziness of being immersed in this kiasu society. And now i've known it all, and its not pretty.

I still wish for the same thing when i was 10. though im not gonna write it here.

despite 7 years that have passed away, nothing much changes.

Whenever i open a new page, ready to begin anew, i always convince myself that this time it will be different. But too bad its not.but all that i can do is just move on with life.

Along the path, many sweet memories are created and etched in my mind.

one would undeniably be my sweet 17th bday party.

although it started out rather disappointing, it ended sweet and memorable.

the most important thing is, all my friends were there.

Everybody willingly celebrate my birthday, with some even preparing video montage and surprise birthday cake.

we played in the water together, well maybe just a few.

These people are the ones who made me survive through those ordeal and trying times.

Thankyou for being there through thick and thin. Thankyou for all the awesome times we had. THankyou for your presence in my birthday and for making it the most beautiful day in my life.

the banner, the book, the video, i will keep them forever with me.

FREEDOM

That was the word that can best describe my life right now.

That was the word that i cant wait to shout out loud to the world.

Yet, that was the word that can determine my future.

That was the word that will be etched in my mind for many years to come.

For i have worked hard these 2 years to be able to write, express, and pen about it.

Freedom was what marked the beginning and end of my battle with O levels.

So many things have changed in these past few months. Sadly most are bads.

But after all is said and done, its HOLIDAY!

Bad, awful, and dreary experiences can easily be forgotten when i finally settle for home. Eating my favorite food, watching my long-awaited movies, but most importantly meeting mom and dad.

This holiday also seems to be sooo much fun! i got OFG, Semarang Trip, Bali diving trip, Pulau Tidung Outing, Bandung Stayout, Girls Night Out. Yep, all awesome experiences just waiting to happen.

These few months were undoubtedly tough, could possibly be the toughest of my life. But its good to know that the good days are still ahead of me. Although JC life might seems to be uncertain to the extreme, i believe its a good opportunity to start a fresh page. wish me luck okay.